I have not written since July! That's a long time. I have to say life was just super busy over the summer and then September came and knocked me off my feet. It started with lots of PTA tasks (I am in my 3rd and final year as PTA President) that were all consuming. Then our very much loved 12 year old Golden Retriever named Mars fell suddenly ill and we were faced with making the decision to have him put to sleep. Since then I have been in a quiet place of needing more time for myself and family. The house is a little lonely and melancholy. I have realized through this that loss is loss. I kept thinking "what's going to happen when you lose a person you really love"? The answer that came back clearly is that loss is loss, don't judge yourself. Mars gave us so much and we loved him dearly. He was a wonderful part of our day. I will miss him always.
So healing wise, I have let myself cry when I need to. I make it a point to pet every Golden I see on the street. That is comforting. Sometimes as a family, we get down and smell where Mars used to like to hang out on the carpet. It faintly still smells like him. We smell his leash and look at photos of him. One of my daughters writes poems to Mars.
I have just in the last week started listening to music again when I cook. I am starting to feel a little more relaxed and centered again. Tonight I made a delicious beet salad and a chick pea kale one as well. I will send photos tomorrow.
Here is a question to ask yourself: What nourishes you? What brings you comfort? What do you seek refuge in?
In health and healing,
Lysa
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